The Color Picture
Posted on January 29, 2010 - Filed Under Life, Parenting, Year Three, travis
When I picked Alex up from Day Care yesterday, he was busy working on a picture.
When it was complete, he brought it to me full of pride at what he had just created. It was a chart with circles of each primary color, and the color names above them.
You should have seen him! He was beaming with pride about his creation, and he should be.
He has carried that picture with him everywhere and even tried to take it to bed last night.
He has asked that I buy magnets so we can mount it on the wall.
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I have not seen Travis much the past few months. He has been busy with school and was having some trouble.
When I do see him, it is usually a five minute hello and goodbye thing.
He has been staying with Toni more and it looks like that is how it will probably be from here on out. I understand it because that is his mother, I just wish we could spend some time together having fun like we used to do.
Travis is a tough one. I love him with everything I have, but I am disappointed that he tends to not be honest with me and lie frequently. When that happens, it is hard to trust him.
I hope we can at least repair some of the damage from the separation and divorce.
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I have been working a lot, and the stress is getting to me. Everything else is fine but work stress some days is amazing.
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My relationship with Barb is great. Never thought I would find someone that I click with this way. We just “get” each other and there is no bullshit.
This is what a healthy relationship should be like.
I know people do not want to hear it, and think I am making bad moves, but the bottom line is that I am happy now after years of not being very happy.
You either accept that or you do not.
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I think people are still in shock over the divorce with Toni and they think it was all so sudden. What they do not realize is that the two of us had been unhappy for years, and we were both good at covering it up.
I know it all seems sudden for people looking at it from the outside, but I can honestly say it was something that had been going on for a long time.
I hope that she can find someone that makes her happy, that is good to Alex and completes her life. I really want that for her. She deserves it.
We are both moving on, and that is just reality.
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I am probably going to put this place on a shelf for a bit. Not sure if I want to continue updating it.
I am going to probably archive all of the stuff about the pregnancy and Alex into a personal scrap book for him so he has something to read when he is older and can understand everything that happened during the time of his birth.
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I always like to see and hear how enthusiastic people can be about colors. As being synesthete I live a life in colors. Synesthesia means that I see colors when I see words and numbers.I transform this in paintings of names and birthdays.
I love that, and love your art work. Really interesting!