Out Of Nowhere
Posted on October 11, 2008 - Filed Under Life, Memories, Stories
It’s been a tough week.
I am usually the one that can keep my emotions in check but I am a complete wreck right now. I am all over the map, and it is frustrating.
Travis has never really seen me cry before. When he came home from school the other day and we told him about grandma he started crying, then I started and I think it caught him by surprise a little bit.
I live in my grandmothers old house and grew up here with a lot of memories. It’s the little things that trigger a memory about her and then I start crying out of the blue. We had so many good and fun times in this house together while I was growing up and I shouldn’t be sad about it, if anything I should be happy knowing that we had so much fun and shared a lot of good times together.
My grandmother used to make bread by hand every few days and it is one of the memories I enjoy the most. Something so simple, yet it floods my memories with the smells and sounds of the entire process.
I remebr her kneading the bread by hand in this huge silver bowl at the kitchen table. She would work really hard at this and I remember how easy she made it look. The first time I tried it I was tired after a few minutes and my hands hur tlike hell. I don’t know how she could do it and not complain.
When she was done kneading the bread, she would place it in a different bowl and cover it with a towel, then place it next to one of the furnace vents so the dough could rise before she baked it. The dough would give off a fresh smell that is one of my favorite cooking smells, even now.
During the Easter holiday she was in full bread baking mode. This is when she would make special bread for the holiday. The bread was shaped like little dolls (similar to what you see here) and the faces were actually drawn onto whole eggs that were part of the bread. The bread is flavored with anise seed giving it a light licorice scent and taste.
Easily my favorite bread and something I look forward to every year. I need to learn how to make this and wish I had taken the time while she was still alive to learn the process from her.
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I know that you feel like your all over the place and you are. You just have to remember to Breathe. Things get harder before they get better. Within time it will get easier and the memories will make you smile. My mom said she would teach you to make bread but you have to come to Arizona..Talk with ya soon
Just taking it one day at a time right now. Thanks for the support Dee, I appreciate it.
I will be here for you anytime. Take care