Looking Back
Posted on April 30, 2008 - Filed Under General, Life, Pregnancy, Year One
“See, this is my opinion: we all start out knowing magic. We are born with whirlwinds, forest fires, and comets inside us. We are born able to sing to birds and read the clouds and see our destiny in grains of sand.”
The truth of life is that every year we get farther away from the essence that is born within us. We get shouldered with burdens, some of them good, some of them not so good. Things happen to us. Loved ones die. People get in wrecks and get crippled. People lose their way, for one reason or another. It’s not hard to do, in this world of crazy mazes. Life itself does its best to take that memory of magic away from us. You don’t know its happening until one day you feel you’ve lost something but you’re not sure what it is. It’s like smiling at a pretty girl and she calls you ’sir’. It just happens.
— Robert R. McCammon
From one of my favorite books, Boys Life. I’ve been thinking about the past a lot this week, and all of the paths that have lead me to where I am in life right now.
I think about the times when I used to have that fire, that whirlwind and that magic and wonder why I ever let it go. I’ve been so wrapped up in being an adult that I think I’ve lost my way a little bit. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy and love where I am at right now but I still wonder… what happened to that spark?
I see it when I look at Alex. That pure spirit and magic, the ability to marvel at the simple things and the pure enjoyment of just being alive. I want that back.
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