Day Care, Talking And Split
Posted on July 2, 2009 - Filed Under Life, Parenting
Alex started Day Care yesterday full time. Originally I wanted him to ease into day care a few days a week, but there have been some changes at home and we had to the full time route.
I had my jitters all day long knowing he was in the hands of someone else, even though I trust his provider (she is a friend of ours), as a parent you still freak out a little bit.
He passed with flying colors!
Toni dropped him off yesterday morning and I picked him up that afternoon. He had a little meltdown when we left thanks to a broken Popsicle, other than that things went well.
When we arrived home it was like a brand new Alex was in the house. He was talking more, playing more and generally much more outgoing. Really a huge stress release for me as a parent to see him adjust this well.
I dropped him off this morning and he was a little upset to see me leave but that comes with the territory. Cannot wait to pick him up tonight and get the holiday weekend started.
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Travis stayed with me at the house last night and it was nice. We turned the TV and games off and just… talked for a long time. We needed it.
Things have been rough this past school year for Travis, and I have not been very nice about it. His grades slipped and I got upset. Lots of conflict.
We talked for hours last night about everything. School, the situation with me and Toni and everything in between.
I apologized to Travis for being so strict and upset with him during the school year, and explained that it was tough to watch him fail. As a parent, you never want to watch your kids fail at anything… but sometimes you have to let them learn on their own and cannot force them to do things.
I have let Travis down as a father the past year when he needed me most, and as difficult as it is to admit that, it is true.
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The situation with me and Toni…
We are spending some time apart while we work through some issues. It makes me sad, depressed and unhappy.
I really do not want to say more about it.
Things Happen For A Reason, Right?
Posted on July 1, 2009 - Filed Under Life
I have always kind of followed that thought in life. Things happen for a reason.
Call it Karma, call it whatever, it has always served me well… until now.
I am going through one of the most terrifying, difficult things in my life right now. It is eating me up inside and I am having a hard time just “rolling” with it like I usually do.
All at once, my life has changed. The life I had last week is 100% turned upside down.
I feel like I am being punished all at once for every bad thing I have done in my life. I am going through every incident, big or small to figure out how I got here and why it is happening.
I cannot help it.
I could use a little luck right now if any of you have some laying around that you can spare.
Unravel
Posted on June 24, 2009 - Filed Under Life
That word describes everything in my life right now.
Things are coming apart, and it feels like most of it is beyond fixing. I want things to be normal again.
I wake up in the morning with a knot in my stomach. I sleepwalk through the day with a knot in my stomach. I go to bed with a knot in my stomach.
It is difficult to fix a situation that does not want to be fixed. As a man, my first instinct is to always try to FIX what is not working. Maybe that is why things are difficult right now?
I have to sit back and just let things happen and it terrifies me.
Strawberry Garden
Posted on June 22, 2009 - Filed Under General
I spent fathers day with Alex over at moms house. Mom has a garden in her back yard stocked with strawberry plants that have small, sweet strawberrys.
Alex go one in his mouth and that was all he needed t o know. We had to make him stop picking through the garden or he would have stripped the plants clean.
Grandpa Dave
Posted on June 12, 2009 - Filed Under Baby Life, Grandpa
Coming up on the first week of being a grandfather. It still feels weird calling myself a grandfather. Not sure if I will ever get used to that.
Silas is doing well and looks like he is on the road to being a normal healthy baby boy. He was a little jaundice but that is normal and should go away within the next few weeks.
Sean and Elizabeth have a long road ahead of them. They are young parents and learning as they go. There are bound to be some ups and downs but generally speaking I think they will do fine.
Sean seems to really be in tune with the baby which is great. I think having Alex around probably helped a little bit with that. Elizabeth was uncomfortable at first, which is understandable, and now seems to be settling into the mommy groove.
I went back and read some of my earlier posts when Toni was pregnant and just after Alex was born and it brought back lots of memories. I am glad I took the time to write about that time of my life. I can refer back to the old posts when I am thinking about what Sean and Elizabeth are going through and share our experiences with them.
Silas had his circumcision yesterday and I cringe just thinking about it. I remember when we went through this with Alex and it was difficult. Changing his diaper and keeping him clean was tough so I know what Sean and Elizabeth are going through right now.
Looking forward to the weekend for some rest and relaxation. I have a large project coming to a close at work next week and it has me stressed out. Just want to make it past that so I can settle down and take care of smaller projects that have been on the back burner.
